How Did I Get Here

I mean the obvious way I got here was by being born, however, that’s not how I fell out of love with my husband.

As with many things it happened slowly and then all at once. The easiest thing to say would be unexpected life things happened and that would be true, but if you get down to the nitty gritty it was for a few reasons. One I often chose my family and their opinions over his, while sometimes this was necessary it definitely added strain. Two, children, not just children, but children with medical conditions with no cure and intensive needs. People always talk about putting your spouse first even above your kids, however, when you have kids whose lives depend on you putting them first day in and day out, you just can’t pit your spouse first. You have to make choice and my husband and I made different choices. I chose to put my kids above everything and he chose to put himself above everything. So I guess that would be the final reason of how I got to where I am in this relationship.

Husbands

Why not get right into it, after all that’s why I created this blog. Husbands, ugh! Don’t get me wrong at some point I was madly in love with my husband, not thinking I could spend a moment away from him. Flash forward several years, kids and ugh life things later and even being away from him for a week seems nowhere near long enough. I know, I know you’re saying to yourself if you’re so miserable then why stay? I get it, I truly do, I myself have heard this from others before and I’ve quickly given advice of what to do. However this situation as with many in my life are complex, there are things, mainly one, make that two people in particular that make just walking out the door not as easy. So for now drudging through it is what’s on the agenda.